Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Life Update
Good news: I have found an apartment and am signing the lease on Saturday, I think. I also contacted Comcast to switch my service and have officially hired a mover to transport me to my new apartment on the 28th.
Bad news: I still have no sublet. This one girl that came yesterday was ALL ABOUT my apartment, and I honestly had such a great feeling about it. I had an ounce of hope in me that this situation really could work out, and then it blew up in my face today when she emailed me saying she didn't want it.
Worse news: I have 1.5 weeks to find a replacement or I'm having to pay $1088 extra next month.
Better news: I had a nice dinner with Candice, my MK recruiter and friend, and we went to a meeting tonight to amp up our MK spirit and learn some new business techniques.
Bad news: I do not feel motivated now. I feel like I need to start my MK business from scratch now.
Good news: It's been really nice outside.
Bad news: I missed seeing the shuttle fly around DC today.
Good news: It gave me a reason to go outside, though.
Bad news: I have been feeling more and more and more cramped at my desk at work because of the nice weather.
Good news: I had free lunch at a sushi restaurant today with a rep of ours.
Bad news: I don't remember her name.
Worse news: We have a deadline Friday at work.
Even worse news: I cannot focus at work because of how stressed I am about this moving situation.
Good news: I have one girl that might still be interested...keeping fingers crossed.
Bad news: Amelia isn't a 100% fan.
Good news: I told Amelia I needed her to commit because I didn't have any other options right now.
Bad news: She got upset and left the room and hasn't talked to me since.
Worse news: She's been upset with me since I told her I was moving out.
Even worse news: She's been real picky about me finding her roommate "soul mate." I told her I needed her help finding the right person and she said no.
Good news: I know inside my new apartment is going to be SO worth it in the end.
Bad news: Happiness at my new apartment is being affected by if I need to pay rent at my current place while living there.
Worse news: No more savings for me if I need to fund two apartments.
Good news: I hope to get a raise soon.
Bad news: I don't have any idea when that will be.
Good news: I know I am going to be happier in my new apartment in two weeks.
Worst news of all: I still have no one to replace me in my current apartment...
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
HH and funny links
Worked my butt off all weekend, had a hard time focusing today, then had a HH with KGD after work! It is so nice to spend time with people you work with out of the office for an hour or two.
Here are some REALLY funny links people sent me today:
1. http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/13-simple-steps-to-get-you-through-a-rough-day
13 Simple Steps to Get you Through a Rough Day
and 2. http://hokiehighs.tumblr.com/
I think this is absolutely HILARIOUS and SO TRUE. Might be one of those "you probably wouldn't get it if you didn't go to Tech" situations but they're still funny.
Check them out :) Made me smile.
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Damn Dog!
I love Belle, yes, but she totally licked my entire block of brie that I was eating for dinner!! I've been going through this phase where I really don't want to buy groceries, so I've been trying to eat whatever I have in the fridge, cabinet, and I've actually been able to get free food at work a lot lately too because of my overtime and leftovers from lunch and learns, haha. Tonight, I am eating the carrots my Mom bought me for the cheese fondue we made together, lettuce with an avocado that she also bought me, and the brie that Tess bought me as a thank you for letting her stay with me this weekend! I also paid Amelia for a beer tonight. I am so lazy.
Well, lazy is relative. I worked a 14 hour day on Thursday, then I worked for 6 hours yesterday, and 5 today. So having the energy to go to the grocery store is half the battle right now. Second part of the battle is wanting to leave the house. Third part is getting the courage to drive my car, which makes this awful squealing noise every time I start it. I know it's my belt, but I don't want to pay the money for it right now... and fourth is not wanting to spend the money because I bought me some Mary Kay products instead this week. HAHA. I really need to be making more money.
I also haven't been sleeping much. I have been goingggoinggoinggoingoigngoingoignoin all day long and stressing hardcore about this move to a new apartment with Kyra that I'm not sleepy when I lie in bed. It's not even that it's the move that stresses me out, it's the fact that we don't have a lease signed or a replacement for me at my apartment that worries me the most. I just don't want to be put into a situation where I'm going to have to pay two months rent at once, especially since I can hardly buy groceries all the time...that would be a really sticky situation, even if I have money saved.
I talked to Anthony last night and it was so nice! He loves it in the outdoors, but has had a few problems with his legs hurting on their hike. I'm glad he's taking a couple days off to rest yesterday and today, though. I can't wait for him to hike up to me :)
Well, lazy is relative. I worked a 14 hour day on Thursday, then I worked for 6 hours yesterday, and 5 today. So having the energy to go to the grocery store is half the battle right now. Second part of the battle is wanting to leave the house. Third part is getting the courage to drive my car, which makes this awful squealing noise every time I start it. I know it's my belt, but I don't want to pay the money for it right now... and fourth is not wanting to spend the money because I bought me some Mary Kay products instead this week. HAHA. I really need to be making more money.
I also haven't been sleeping much. I have been goingggoinggoinggoingoigngoingoignoin all day long and stressing hardcore about this move to a new apartment with Kyra that I'm not sleepy when I lie in bed. It's not even that it's the move that stresses me out, it's the fact that we don't have a lease signed or a replacement for me at my apartment that worries me the most. I just don't want to be put into a situation where I'm going to have to pay two months rent at once, especially since I can hardly buy groceries all the time...that would be a really sticky situation, even if I have money saved.
I talked to Anthony last night and it was so nice! He loves it in the outdoors, but has had a few problems with his legs hurting on their hike. I'm glad he's taking a couple days off to rest yesterday and today, though. I can't wait for him to hike up to me :)
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Glimmer of hope
After whining on here at on my journal about being sad not talking to Anthony, he called me last night and we talked for a long time! I was so happy to hear from him. He's hiked over 110 miles, and is loving it. He's hiking with three people, each with their own nicknames already but he and Tom don't have them yet. There's Pork Steak, who likes to eat pork steak, who is married to Somersault, who tripped and fell on the trail and did a somersault, and then there's Inspector Gadget, who is always prepared with anything a hiker would ever need! He only got rained on two days, but he said he was staying positive while thinking about how it's nice to have a water supply easily available. One cold night, he slept great because of his fancy schmancy hiking gear, while Tom was freezing and awake all night. They stayed in a motel yesterday and last night, and woke up to get on the trail again. He said that he got a lot of "trail magic" last week, with free pancakes and breakfasts from nearby people!
I am so happy to hear from him and know that even though he's hiking a ton, he's still loving every mile and having lots of good food to eat. He said he's not really looking forward to the stingy northerners, because all the southern people on the trail love helping the thru-hikers so much. Haha.
Anyway, I found the most perfect apartment in the world. OK, it's not perfect. But it's pretty damn close. A pool...lots of living space...huge kitchen...gated property...dog park...yoga studio...huge gym...1/2 hour from the Metro...omg I loved it. Kyra, though, isn't sold yet and it's because it's not too close to a lot of things. I understand completely, but part of me wants to be very honest and just say, "Girl, you're never going to find anything for this price anywhere else." Instead, I said, "I understand if you don't like it, but it's amazing. Let me know what you think." I hope she wants it. Huge closets...balcony...dishwasher...full-sized washers and dryers...bay window...you just can't find those things anywhere for under $1000 a person! Here's the catch. Minus the location not being prime, the complex is right next to the Metro and Amtrak tracks. A bunch of people wrote, "Noisy" on their reviews, but I was on the property during rush hour and hardly noticed the noise. Our building wouldn't be on the tracks, either, which is good. Also, the complex is full of people and dogs, and the fact they allow dogs is huge because a ton of properties up here don't. I hope she comes around! We'll see, though. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. You should cross your fingers too.
SO now I'll talk about work. I hate it right now. I know people go through stages where they hate their jobs, but I hate it. HATE. I hurt just thinking about having to go to work the next day most of the time. It's because I'm coasting and my to-do list is packed full of shit that Interior Designers never have to do. Elevator shaft sections? Garage vestibules? It's just so frustrating. But they say, "Courtney, you have the skills to do this, trust us." But I really wish I could do interiors work. Danielle looked over my shoulder the other day at work and said, "What on Earth are you doing?! I've never had to do that in my entire career." (Career of five years, I believe.) I wish that people would understand that yes, I love KGD, but sometimes I just HATE the work they give me, with an utter, inner, boiling passion. If I had to do these tasks continuously throughout my career, I would definitely switch careers. The long hours, the unhappy people, the low pay...it's enough to scare anyone away from the profession. Brian, my supervisor at work, said, "Did you ever notice that all the Architects in the movie are refined, rich, and look like they sleep every night?" Then he just laughed as if to say, "Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight."
If I was to switch careers, though, I wouldn't know where to start. Just like in college when I asked myself, "If you were to switch majors, what would you study?" I never had a good answer, so I didn't ever switch. Some day, I want to love my job. I want to look forward to going to work everyday instead of dreading it. I want to surround myself with optimistic, happy people instead of grumpy, overworked architects. If I was put into a situation where I would have to move to a location that didn't have an Architecture/Interior Design job for me, I would want to bake or be a Mom or go back to school to be a teacher or I would be an event planner. I think those would all be nice. I couldn't afford to go back to school, actually, so that probably rules that one out of my list. Maybe. Maybe if I was to go back to Blacksburg one day, I could get my Masters in Interiors and become a studio teacher and ask students silly questions like, "What is that?" They would say, "It's a box." "No, it's not just a box. What does it mean to you?"
"It's just a box."
"What does it do?"
"It doesn't do anything."
F for you!
Baking sure would be fun to do...everyone loves cakes. And those people who don't like cakes certainly love cupcakes or pies or baked brie or cookies. Everyone likes one of those. Even Ava, who swears she doesn't like sweets! Or Carie, who says she doesn't like cake.
It's 8:09pm on Tuesday. This means New Girl is on at 9! I better get cozy on the couch with some hot chocolate before it comes on!
I am so happy to hear from him and know that even though he's hiking a ton, he's still loving every mile and having lots of good food to eat. He said he's not really looking forward to the stingy northerners, because all the southern people on the trail love helping the thru-hikers so much. Haha.
Anyway, I found the most perfect apartment in the world. OK, it's not perfect. But it's pretty damn close. A pool...lots of living space...huge kitchen...gated property...dog park...yoga studio...huge gym...1/2 hour from the Metro...omg I loved it. Kyra, though, isn't sold yet and it's because it's not too close to a lot of things. I understand completely, but part of me wants to be very honest and just say, "Girl, you're never going to find anything for this price anywhere else." Instead, I said, "I understand if you don't like it, but it's amazing. Let me know what you think." I hope she wants it. Huge closets...balcony...dishwasher...full-sized washers and dryers...bay window...you just can't find those things anywhere for under $1000 a person! Here's the catch. Minus the location not being prime, the complex is right next to the Metro and Amtrak tracks. A bunch of people wrote, "Noisy" on their reviews, but I was on the property during rush hour and hardly noticed the noise. Our building wouldn't be on the tracks, either, which is good. Also, the complex is full of people and dogs, and the fact they allow dogs is huge because a ton of properties up here don't. I hope she comes around! We'll see, though. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. You should cross your fingers too.
SO now I'll talk about work. I hate it right now. I know people go through stages where they hate their jobs, but I hate it. HATE. I hurt just thinking about having to go to work the next day most of the time. It's because I'm coasting and my to-do list is packed full of shit that Interior Designers never have to do. Elevator shaft sections? Garage vestibules? It's just so frustrating. But they say, "Courtney, you have the skills to do this, trust us." But I really wish I could do interiors work. Danielle looked over my shoulder the other day at work and said, "What on Earth are you doing?! I've never had to do that in my entire career." (Career of five years, I believe.) I wish that people would understand that yes, I love KGD, but sometimes I just HATE the work they give me, with an utter, inner, boiling passion. If I had to do these tasks continuously throughout my career, I would definitely switch careers. The long hours, the unhappy people, the low pay...it's enough to scare anyone away from the profession. Brian, my supervisor at work, said, "Did you ever notice that all the Architects in the movie are refined, rich, and look like they sleep every night?" Then he just laughed as if to say, "Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight."
If I was to switch careers, though, I wouldn't know where to start. Just like in college when I asked myself, "If you were to switch majors, what would you study?" I never had a good answer, so I didn't ever switch. Some day, I want to love my job. I want to look forward to going to work everyday instead of dreading it. I want to surround myself with optimistic, happy people instead of grumpy, overworked architects. If I was put into a situation where I would have to move to a location that didn't have an Architecture/Interior Design job for me, I would want to bake or be a Mom or go back to school to be a teacher or I would be an event planner. I think those would all be nice. I couldn't afford to go back to school, actually, so that probably rules that one out of my list. Maybe. Maybe if I was to go back to Blacksburg one day, I could get my Masters in Interiors and become a studio teacher and ask students silly questions like, "What is that?" They would say, "It's a box." "No, it's not just a box. What does it mean to you?"
"It's just a box."
"What does it do?"
"It doesn't do anything."
F for you!
Baking sure would be fun to do...everyone loves cakes. And those people who don't like cakes certainly love cupcakes or pies or baked brie or cookies. Everyone likes one of those. Even Ava, who swears she doesn't like sweets! Or Carie, who says she doesn't like cake.
It's 8:09pm on Tuesday. This means New Girl is on at 9! I better get cozy on the couch with some hot chocolate before it comes on!
Monday, March 26, 2012
Weirdest Dream Ever
Last night, I had a dream about an apartment I went to go look at. It was a 3 br/2 ba townhouse and the owners had sets of washers/dryers all over, including in the bedrooms and on the top landing of the stairs. I thought it was strange, but the woman explained that her husband sleeps with layers of wool blankets and each washer/dryer belonged to one of the blankets because they couldn't be washed together.
Naturally, I kept thinking in my dream how expensive their utility bills were! So I told them I would house sit for them when they left for the weekend to get a feel for the house and when they were sleeping that night, I walked in to check the place out again. I noticed one of the washers was plugged in but leaking and flames were starting to form but I just tucked the washer back into the corner because I knew I wasn't supposed to be in there. But I did feel guilty because that could've burned the house down, but I was more concerned about getting caught at the time.
Then I went to look at another place in Old Town, and the Living Room was converted into an indoor lacrosse field so I played with some people I didn't know and then I woke up.
Naturally, I kept thinking in my dream how expensive their utility bills were! So I told them I would house sit for them when they left for the weekend to get a feel for the house and when they were sleeping that night, I walked in to check the place out again. I noticed one of the washers was plugged in but leaking and flames were starting to form but I just tucked the washer back into the corner because I knew I wasn't supposed to be in there. But I did feel guilty because that could've burned the house down, but I was more concerned about getting caught at the time.
Then I went to look at another place in Old Town, and the Living Room was converted into an indoor lacrosse field so I played with some people I didn't know and then I woke up.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
A Long Summer Ahead
I've been keeping pretty busy but at the end of the day, I just get sad. I knew this was going to be a hard six months with Anthony leaving, but I didn't imagine it was going to be this tough. We have been apart since May, yes, but only by location. We talked almost every day, in some way...phone calls...emails...texts...gchats...but now I've been thrown into this whole new world where I only get to see his updates on his fancy hiker GPS.
"Courtney, you should be thankful he even has that." And I am. But why does that mean I had to say Good bye to him altogether? It's only been a week but I am frantically dreading the next six excruciating months. I miss him so much.
I know it's not fair for me to feel this way, though. He has been telling me for months that this was coming. He is experiencing so many new things, learning new skills, meeting new friends, hiking and getting tired throughout the day, so why would I ever expect him to send me a text while on the trail or email me when he's laying in his hammock at night? That's just silly. He's out in the wild to get rid of technology and frankly, the ruined society right now.
So I should just respect his decision, suck it up, and just get over my stupid, irrational feelings, right? As much as I want to be, I just have to get over the fact that I am not a priority right now and that's a hard pill to swallow. I know in my heart that once he is back or the second he gets into a hotel some time, he will call me. But in the meantime, I am waiting.
I hate waiting.
"Courtney, you should be thankful he even has that." And I am. But why does that mean I had to say Good bye to him altogether? It's only been a week but I am frantically dreading the next six excruciating months. I miss him so much.
I know it's not fair for me to feel this way, though. He has been telling me for months that this was coming. He is experiencing so many new things, learning new skills, meeting new friends, hiking and getting tired throughout the day, so why would I ever expect him to send me a text while on the trail or email me when he's laying in his hammock at night? That's just silly. He's out in the wild to get rid of technology and frankly, the ruined society right now.
So I should just respect his decision, suck it up, and just get over my stupid, irrational feelings, right? As much as I want to be, I just have to get over the fact that I am not a priority right now and that's a hard pill to swallow. I know in my heart that once he is back or the second he gets into a hotel some time, he will call me. But in the meantime, I am waiting.
I hate waiting.
Friday, March 23, 2012
TGIF!
Last night, I kicked my butt doing a P90X workout. So much that I pretty much passed out after laying in bed at 10! ...right after a friend of mine called, actually...
So I've been stressing so much about my living situation and finding a one bedroom, but I knew that it would be hard to commit to anything knowing I wouldn't know where Anthony would be. I hear your comments now. "Courtney, you need to think about you and you alone right now." "Courtney, you can't depend on him right now because he doesn't even know where he'll be." "Courtney Courtney Courtney." Well, I would tell all of you that you have legit feelings, but I am following my heart and my heart is wherever Anthony is. ...except maybe hiking on the AT. I don't think it would want to hike 2100 miles in six months!
Anyway, a call from this friend, her name is Kyra, surprised me to say the least. She is looking for a roommate to live with her until her boyfriend, Shawn, moves in in December. I really really like Kyra, and I really like Shawn. I also would know where Anthony would be and I can take it one day at a time after that. Truly though, I also wouldn't mind living with both Shawn and Kyra if it ever came to that, as long as they didn't mind, haha! I think Anthony would be surprised at this decision because of how much I've been looking forward to getting a one bedroom apartment up here. But honestly, I just can't afford it comfortably and sign a huge lease by myself not knowing if I'm going to stay. So I am moving out and into another apartment May 1st!
Besides that, I have been so sore from my workout that I've felt like I have had a fever and tons of bruises all day. I keep thinking what Anthony is feeling right now, because at least I'm not hiking 15 miles a day with 35 lbs on my back! I got nothing done at work today, but we did go on a tour to IBS Millwork. Great company, such nice people, I loved it there! Then I came home and Maria's in town visiting! I really wanted to go see the cherry blossoms but I think that it's supposed to rain all day, and I wanted to see Hunger Games, but it's all sold out in DC! UGH!! Oh well :)
So I've been stressing so much about my living situation and finding a one bedroom, but I knew that it would be hard to commit to anything knowing I wouldn't know where Anthony would be. I hear your comments now. "Courtney, you need to think about you and you alone right now." "Courtney, you can't depend on him right now because he doesn't even know where he'll be." "Courtney Courtney Courtney." Well, I would tell all of you that you have legit feelings, but I am following my heart and my heart is wherever Anthony is. ...except maybe hiking on the AT. I don't think it would want to hike 2100 miles in six months!
Anyway, a call from this friend, her name is Kyra, surprised me to say the least. She is looking for a roommate to live with her until her boyfriend, Shawn, moves in in December. I really really like Kyra, and I really like Shawn. I also would know where Anthony would be and I can take it one day at a time after that. Truly though, I also wouldn't mind living with both Shawn and Kyra if it ever came to that, as long as they didn't mind, haha! I think Anthony would be surprised at this decision because of how much I've been looking forward to getting a one bedroom apartment up here. But honestly, I just can't afford it comfortably and sign a huge lease by myself not knowing if I'm going to stay. So I am moving out and into another apartment May 1st!
Besides that, I have been so sore from my workout that I've felt like I have had a fever and tons of bruises all day. I keep thinking what Anthony is feeling right now, because at least I'm not hiking 15 miles a day with 35 lbs on my back! I got nothing done at work today, but we did go on a tour to IBS Millwork. Great company, such nice people, I loved it there! Then I came home and Maria's in town visiting! I really wanted to go see the cherry blossoms but I think that it's supposed to rain all day, and I wanted to see Hunger Games, but it's all sold out in DC! UGH!! Oh well :)
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